In a recent giveaway one of the entries was for you guys to tell me what you were most thankful for this holiday season and your answers got me thinking- what am I thankful for this year?
I’m a fairly introspective person, and that can be both good and bad. I’m constantly reflecting on and thinking about things but I have a hard time really putting feelings (especially things like thankfulness) into words. Combine that with just me generally always wanting to put on a tough front and I really don’t talk about what I’m really thinking or feeling very often.
I at least wanted to list a few things that I’m thankful for, maybe it’ll be something nice to reflect back as a reminder of all that I have when I’m not feeling so great.
I’m thankful that although I’ve had some really dark days with depression this year, I’m still taking things one day at a time and fighting to stay alive. That’s kind of a weird thing to type out but I can’t really phrase it any other way.
I’m thankful for a significant other who has stuck with me so long (even if some days I don’t know what he sees in me). He doesn’t always understand (does anyone?) but he’s always willing to do what he can to help, whether it’s listening to me vent or just giving me a shoulder to cry on (or a funny/sweet greeting card, he does that randomly and it’s the sweetest thing ever). I’m thankful that he gives me a roof over my head, food to eat and helps me make ends meet when my own earnings fall a little short.
I’m thankful to have met someone who not only understands my frequent need for alone time but is the same way. And with that said, I’m thankful to be with someone who I really enjoy hanging out with, whether that’s geeking out over movies or shows together, playing video games together or just hanging out. I’m thankful that in contrast to what I’ve heard about some blogger’s SO’s, he not only full supports me blogging but occasionally helps out by writing blog posts or helping with swatches. (What I’m not thankful for- the farts! Ugh!! lol)
I’m thankful for this lovely, fluffy, jowly creature that came into my life shortly after my boyfriend and I started dating and has given me so much happiness in the years since. Through all his attitude and sass, I know that he really cares about us and protects us and keeps us safe and I don’t know what I’d do without Mugen.
I’m thankful that although we’re dysfunctional and fight a lot, everyone in my family is doing much better in their lives in a variety of ways than they were in the past few years. I’m thankful that everyone is in decent enough health and that the things we do fight over are pretty unimportant compared to other issues we could be having (good ol’ religion and politics).
I’m thankful that I have a seasonal job that I actually enjoy working at (at least once the crazy rush peak of it is over). My coworkers are all super nice and funny, the job is easy enough and for once in YEARS my commute is not over an hour each way. I do wish it paid better but after going through a period of total unemployment a little while back, I’m really just thankful for anything!
I’m thankful for all the wonderful brands I’ve had an opportunity to work with this year. I’m thankful for all of the amazing people who have trusted me to review their product fairly and honestly and I’m thankful that they’ve allowed me to share a lot of new releases with you guys.
I’m thankful to so many of my blogger friends that I’ve met since I began this crazy journey last year! Originally I wanted to list a bunch here but I knew I’d end up leaving at least one person out without thinking and I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings. You guys have helped with questions that I’ve had, given me support to stand my ground through harassment about reviews that weren’t positive and have just been some of the most amazing people to get to know.
Most of all, I’m really thankful for all of you who read my blog, whether you’re an active commenter (love getting to know you guys!) here and/or on social media or you’re just a lurker, I still really appreciate it. I really never thought anyone would be interested in reading my blog and I can still remember how great it felt to get my first active commenter (who is now one of my closest blogging friends, shoutout to Tunay Na Mahal!). Prior to that I was making my boyfriend comment on all of my posts so I knew at least one person was reading them, lol!
I wrote about this on facebook recently but you guys are not just a number in the crowd, especially the ones who interact often, I really start to learn your names and get excited to see a new comment pop up from you! Reading your comments (+ knowing you lurkers are out there too) really makes all the hard work worth it, and you guys feel like friends to me. I’m thankful that you have picked my blog as one to follow and that you trust me and (hopefully) enjoy the content that I put out. (If you’re just hate-reading that’s cool too, lol.)
So, overall I have a lot to be thankful for and that’s something I need to push myself to start saying more and to remember when I’m feeling down on myself. Aaaaand, now I’m going to hit publish on this before I decide I’m too embarrassed by being this open and just delete it all, lol. Hope you guys have a great holiday! I have a few more regular posts coming up for you, then some year-end lists and then we’ll be getting started on 2015!